How do you spell 'relief'?

I have been a ball of emotions lately. Maybe I should have wrote "bawl" of emotions. It's applicable...I haven't been this weepy in years!

Last Friday I picked up a shift at work and had the most horrendous night of my 10-year career. I ended up in the ladies room crying from all the stress. If that wasn't bad enough, I couldn't even grant myself sufficient time to have a good cry... I had to get back out there and try to hold the airline together. I left after a 12-hour night of such horrific intensity that it will tide me over for another 10 years.

If that's not enough I've been finishing up this semester in school and that means finals. You know me... I'm always robbing Peter to pay Paul the time I owe to one thing or another. As a result the only substantial studying for my A & P final came yesterday--and that would be the day before my final. 33% of my "comprehensive" final would cover the last 3 chapters (nervous system & brain) that I had barely looked at and definitely did not understand. Parasympathetic preganglionic neurons? Arachnoid villi? Are you freaking kidding me?

So last night I crammed. And I do mean crammed. I'm glad I did because I reconnected with concepts introduced in the beginning of the semester and sort of grasped what I didn't understand from the last 3 chapters. But I still dreaded this morning. Again, I damn near found myself in tears.

But I had an epiphany this morning on my way to take my test. No matter what my grade was or if I passed the class (even if I had nothing but 100's the entire semester I could still fail the class if I didn't get at least a 65 on the final--after the curve...see why I was stressing?) I still did what I set out to do when I registered: learn a lot more about the muscles of the body, the skeleton and joint actions. These would be things that would be most beneficial to me as a personal trainer.

Ninety minutes and two hundred and forty questions later I left the building, feeling somewhat confident that I had at least passed the final and, therefore, the class. My instructor told everyone that she would have our grades to us by tonight.

She got it done a lot sooner.

After the curve I got a 95 on my final. Overall that left me with a 90.14 for the class. That's a B.

If you'll pardon me, I'm going to go have a good cry. Then I'm going to finish up assignments due for my other two classes and study for those finals on Monday.

Does anyone have a Kleenex?


LceeL said...

Well done,sweetheart. Well done. Keep up the good work.

Allison said...

I had about the same experience with the final for my Intro to Psych class. I had done most of the work and reading, but I still felt really behind in it. And the day of the final, this lady came to our door telling us her husband had owned the place before our landlord, and she was foreclosing on them (her husband had died since selling the house), so she was going to become our new landlord.

Short crazy lady say WHAT???

I can't remember my grade (it was just over 6 years ago now), but I didn't flunk I remember that much! Congrats on your B! :-D

Are you sure you don't want to join my contest?

Mrs. F said...

Woo hoo! Congrats are in order. Way to go!!!

Zeynep Ankara said...

It is not a bad resuld?? Well done. And if you feel down, come to me for dinner if you like that roll, lol. Hope you are having a good weekend. Cheers, Zeynep xx

Anonymous said...

Congratulations... that is enough pressure to make me want to cry for a year!! But don't put it past the upcoming New Moon... which I will be writing about soon enough.

Take a deep breath... eat a litre of ice cream (or low fat yogurt if you you wanna) and have a good cry.

You deserve it girl. You deserve it!

Ciao bella

Gandalfe said...

I'm hoping you did only the things you wanted to this weekend with the people you love. Life is hard, that's a fact. But it sounds like you did just fine with this adventure.

The Dissonance said...

BTW, yes I have two aliases on this service. ;o)

Malathionman said...

I always thought 90% and above was an A. Tough class. But good job anyways. I always put too much pressure on myself when I went to school. I'm sure you were in no danger of failing that class. :)

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shoozles said...

Oh gal crying is good for us, you should know that!!!

So glad you passed the test. hang in there :)

Patty O said...

Well done. I'm sure you'll be a wonderful personal trainer.

White Hot Magik said...

I think some celebrating or relaxing is in order! Holey Moley lady. You are right to take the attitude that you are learning what you can. After finishing college and working, I think the classes mostly familiarize you with the subject so you can learn more when you need to. Especially in science things are always changing as we learn more. In a hard class a B is good work.

Bird said...

What's Up!!!! A cuve is every lady's friend. I'm the queen of cram by the way. Luckily, there are always people in the class less prepared than I and the curve saved me every time (although I didn't usually end up with a 95).

Mocha said...

Excellent work. You know, the crying is really part of the necessary stuff. You just get it all out, honey. I know. I know.

Hang in there and all that good stuff!

Sidewalks said...

You do a lot better than I ever did...I would cram all night and still end up with a 68 (and that's when I would cry). Hang in there, the semester is almost over. :)